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Saturday, October 29

Running with Him in my dreams.

Funny i dreamt that i was running real steady the other day.
and i was not alone. He was with me.
and it seems i'm running towards some sort of victory.. triumph.

but anyway, i think today i finally found what's missing in me all these while when i thought i actually had it all the while with me. and that's...

confidence.

Heli Dont ask me why 11:54 PM

Thursday, October 27

Rain on me.

Felt as if it came down for me.
yup..
it feels good to walk in the rain once more.

i'm waiting for you to say something.

Heli Dont ask me why 9:38 PM

Tuesday, October 25

every morning i wake up i keep on wanna sneeze.

and sneeze...

and sneeze somemore...

and more more MORE. T_T wo de tian its as if my whole nose is going to come out like that.
on some day its really not that bad, but days like TODAY!!! wth i almost screamed the f word in my house.

hah but as i'm typing this, my nose is okay le. quite bad la ha. what do they call this, morning sickness? (but i thought that's for pregnant ladies only. nono i'm not pregnant. )

anyway har my days are numbered.. 2 more weeks and aiyo..
pimples are attacking at full force.. this is crazy. =/

"push harder please thanks. come i show you how to push.."

Heli Dont ask me why 10:21 AM

Sunday, October 23

to all dear ny geog peeps,

please take a look at the following links:

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=O0DMPNG9

some geog stuffs ng kt wanted to post on litespeed but didn't yet.
haha yup do go download ba. and keep pushing on alright? =)

someone push heli pls.

Heli Dont ask me why 8:18 PM

Friday, October 21

stagnant-no-more blog.

yah i'm here to post a entry for the sake of posting one. lol and i've decided to put this picture of my mei and introduce her to you all in the midst of studying lols.

haha she claimed that this is her most ugly/funny/idiotic/stupid-looking/spastic-looking picture (but i think all the picture look same to me. HAHA.)

oh well, she's the gerl that once called me at 3 plus am in the morning and didn't talk much cos half the time she's going "boo-hoo" aka crying. and somehow she knows when i'm going to nap/napping and will just nice give me the call at the right time. that's pretty fine with me actually, but apparently she likes to bug me on the phone for a long long time (most of the time an hour), telling me about her chou shi plus her braggings and what not and don't care if i've school or not the next day, don't care if i need to study or not lols. she likes to act cute in front of me online, telling me about her uninteresting life, hoping i will entertain her lols which is pretty qian da of her since she knows i'm mugging and gu yi di siao me (and when i turn to rant somehow she just disappear lols). oh and she likes to remind me about her birthday when in fact mine haven't reach yet. lols.

haha ya people, she's cassandra ong zi ling, and so unluckily she's my mei. haha..

(whispers: but to tell you all the truth, i love this mei of mine loads for the things she has and has not done. and it's.."..luckily she's my mei." =D )

yeah okay good entry eh? haha i'm off to you-know-what.

Heli Dont ask me why 12:55 PM

Friday, October 14

Nullify.
Tired from feeling to much, and thinking to much.
It's easier to feel nothing, to be ignorant, for nothing will affects you.
you don't feel happy, nor sad. fair enough.
yah bullshitting again. just tired perhaps.

"it's so easy to cry. it's so easy to yearn. because it is for nothing. we always wish someone knew, even though truly, no one will ever know." - WT. L. J.

Heli Dont ask me why 8:39 PM

Thursday, October 13

Farewell O4A4B

"It is hard to say goodbye. So, I won't!"

He said that in the powerpoint, and i really felt like crying it all out. He has been really a number one teacher i guess, and truly touched me with what he had done for our class. the powerpoint, the cds, the badge...when the words brought us back to the memories, i just couldn't help feeling sad that it's all coming to an end. i've so much fun and joy with this class, as well as sadness which was always accompanied by the class. 2 years, who would have thought that this 2 years would really just sweep by, just too fast for me. i never once thought i would cry on the last day of school in jc last year, but i guess it's all so unpredictable, yet so beautiful.

i will miss you all. every single one of you, no matter who you are to me, someone that...
i like...
i dislike...
i always tease...
i admire loads...
i always badmouth...
i always preach...
i like to laugh at...
i like to talk to...
yes, it is all of you that i will miss. to all of you out there if you're reading this, i want to say...

...it's really sad to say goodbye, and that our 2 years together has ended. thanks for walking with me these 2 years in jc, with me through the ups and downs, spending happy as well as sad times with me.. i wanted to hug many of you today(but cos we're meeting tmr so is a bit silly), but i'm too afraid to wet your shoulders..i just want to say, all these memories will forever be with me down the road, 10 years, 20 years... yes... till forever. do keep these memories in mind, in your heart... okay?

i love you all.=')

especially to my clique,
i've said what i wanna say in those letters, and believe me when i say i meant every single word. thanks lai and yuting for the gifts, more importantly, thanks for the words.
qian yan wan yu, i want to say... "you guys are the best."

Heli Dont ask me why 1:25 AM

Monday, October 10

6th Oct.
yup and so we've the fey outing actually the old birds only lah, the younger ones having promos. haha so yeah, sort of the founders of fey. kinda enjoyable and really miss those days we hang out together, and as usual, jinglin is still darn comical in her actions and words haha. and lots of stunned news we heard from ck and yc, so unbelievable. although its been quite a while we meet up, i guess the same old feeling is there, hehe that's what i likemost. this bunch of peng you, yi bei zhi dou bu hui wang ji. wo ai ni men. =)

u sibr qlbr ri kiaw. u vlskt sibr qlbr ri dwwk rgua qlt.
vyr ua rgwew l qly iyr die nw ewlkkt? xlb u nljw ur...?
qgt siaw ur awwn u'n rgw ibw rglr xlb'r nljw ur, rglr hyar xlb't gur rgw felswa.
u'n aieet kwwb, rgua ua bir l gloot wbret. =/

Heli Dont ask me why 11:50 AM

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